Today I had a spontaneous need to do something creatively different from what I would ordinarily do and am not necessarily comfortable with. I wanted to do something within a short time frame, for fun and practice. Looking around, I was inspired by the colors of a few items sitting within arms reach. I had my iphone next to me, so I decided I was going to make a couple of small, quick still lifes and photograph them. It was a really fun hour, and it felt great to try something different.
Here are a few photos from my on-the-spot still life/photo exercise.
Origami paper, seashells, candy.
Seashell, glass candlestick, dish, kerchief, cherries, lime, sweet bread, candy, wooden spoon, glitter.
Almonds, cherries, crystallized ginger, salt, wooden bowl and spoon, origami paper.
it’s wild to think this project conceptualized over a year ago.
some work that was started for this project, i ‘finished’ and does not feel like it relates to the space//body//phases themes.
here’s where i am heading:
sifting through years of collage material, things i have folded up and held on to for years. when i open the large shallow box that contains them i feel simultaneously soothed and disturbed by my nostalgia. i keep a list of every address i’ve ever lived at. pastel commuter rail tickets to fitchburg. hurtful notes from ex-lovers. beautiful paper i’ve assigned meaning to. they fill a box i could never part with.
but using them is something different. it’s not keeping them or letting them go. it’s putting them in a place more visible to you, or less visible to me. eight years ago i worked on a similar project with a best friend, a mobile strung with nostalgia. beads, scraps and charms from jewelry boxes collected together and bound with thread. hanging them up helped put them away, or put them to use.
art book club’s collaborative art works are some of my favorite. this time we decided to make a book of it, but instead of chronological pages, we chose to create on every page anywhere we please. i just received the book for the first time and i’m looking forward to adding my part. a favorite page of mine:
none of these feel complete, but here is recent progress…
This project is still very nebulous for me but I’ve been working a lot on self portraits I’m still a bit too scared to share. Looking at myself from unflattering angles, both physically and otherwise, how I’ve changed, how I stick up for myself and take up space, stand my ground. It feels self indulgent to pore over ever inch of my own body but I don’t know if I’m qualified to try and map someone else’s until I’ve mastered my own. Maybe the first step in the process is getting brave enough to share, to say this is how I am, this is how I see myself. I’m working on it.